“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my way, saith the Lord.”
Isaiah 55:8
Growing up in church, I was always told that once I got to college my relationship with God would go through the ultimate test. I used to take the saints warnings lightly, brushing It off, assuming I would be fine if I just kept praying, fasting and reading my word. However, now that I’m in college and have gotten a feel for it, I can say that it’s best to listen to the wisdom from the elders of the church.
Last week, I was dealing with an issue that I stressed over for days. I was presented with a great opportunity and really wanted to take it. I know that the Bible says “…no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly” (Psalms 84:11) but it also says “…faith without works is dead…” (James 2:26) so not only did I have faith that the Lord was going to present me with this chance to further my academics, I also prepared, prayed, fasted and stayed in my word. However, in the end I was denied the prospect. I was torn up inside for days. I felt as if God hadn’t heard and it made me question if He ever had. I felt like I could never trust Him to be there for me again. I knew that I should have gone back to Him in prayer in order to get clarification but instead I found excuse after excuse not get on my knees, even after hearing Him call out to me. I was like a child ignoring their parent who refused to give them a lollipop.
I am a member of the gospel choir at my school and one night during dismissal prayer the leader quoted the scripture above, explaining that though we don’t always understand why things happen the way they do and all we can do is trust Him. This hit me hard. I had put all of my trust in Him and felt like it had been broken but in reality it hadn’t been. As soon as I got back to my dorm room I fell to my knees in prayer. I apologized for turning my back on Him and thanked Him for not forgetting me. We have to remember that God works in mysterious ways and even though we may not always understand them, we have to trust that He is doing what He knows is best for us. Its like Deitrick Haddon says in his song, “…don’t give up on God, because He won’t give up on you…” I still don’t know why the opportunity had been denied to me and I’m not even going to try to figure it out. I know that it just wasn’t a good thing for me and that I have an even better blessing on the way.
#nuffsaid
